Ushering in 2014!

Spring cleaning my room :) 5 years worth of junk cleared out. Most of it from my Diploma and Degree days ;) Found some nostalgic stuff like year books and report

cards all the way back since primary school. I'm an average student.. To those people who thinks I'm smart and all, u should have a look at my report card, u'll change ur perception hahaha gone are the days where results play an important role in our lives and in comes the day where no one will even ask "what was your SPM results?" or even "what mention did you get for your bachelors degree?" the restart button has been pressed and as long as u have the passion and drive, you are as good as anyone regardless of what ur pass are, good or bad results :) Happy New Year! 

Midnight thoughts.. Again..

Kids, they surprise me sometimes. They do understand emotions, and to think that someone so young could understand such emotions fascinates me. I will never forget the girl who greeted me cheerfully every Sunday without fail, but sensing that something was wrong that day, just stood by me quietly without probing any questions like " what happen?" or " what's wrong?" we just stood there together, looking out of the window silently, just staying by me. Peace came before I had the strength to muster my enthusiastic energy to play games wih the kids after that. Just shows how sometimes, talking is not needed to make a person feel better. Sometimes, sitting silently together helps just as well. No nosy business, just enjoying each others company :) 

Had to write this, or I won't be able to sleep -.- midnight thoughts are ruining my beauty sleep! 

Midnight thoughts

There are many things that my heart tugs me to do, things which are right, things which are noble, things to stand up for; but somehow eventually I would move away cowardly from that instinct, brush it under the carpet, ignore that instinct, afraid of what others would think of me. Cowardly blaming it on the people around me giving excuses that if I were to stop and help, I would hold down the whole group. But then I would regret it later, and wallow in "what if's" that things would have been different if I did something. Wishful thinkings. 

Have you ever stand up for what you think is right? I've always been saying I'll do something next time, but in the end, same cowardly reaction. I need a catalyst... Oh where art thou? 

*sorry for not posting any updates on my french trip, was meaning to do it but wifi in France sux.. Now that I'm back, I'm quite lazy to plot my thoughts back on "paper" so I'll just let the pictures on fb do the talking ;)

Au Revoir Malaisie, bienvenue France!

I'm actually quite proud of myself for packing all my stuffs so meticulously into my luggage bag :D below the items on top that makes it so untidy are actually all my clothes all rolled up and organized. I hate myself for not taking a picture of it once I was done with the clothes layer lol taking it all out now would be a puzzle

piece since every space within the luggage is fully utilized. But oh well, I finally get to experience traveling overseas, to experience Autumn for the very first time ^^ pretty much ecstatic minus the assignments which I have to do there and the cultural performance -.- hopefully all turns out well and I return in one piece :) 

I suppose I'm suppose to have a travel log/diary, but since I don't, I shall just use this space as my travel log for now. I'll try to post up something every other day :) 

PBe careful of what you wish for...somethings are not given simply because you aren't ready yet. It may seem wonderful when someone else have it, or may even seem like the right thing to do, or the right thing to have in that context. But then you realize that when you have it, you don't know how to handle it, and it's not so wonderful to have anymore. But oh wells...I suppose we have to start somewhere do we?  

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"this is my best friend, break her heart and I'll break your face" somehow I'm very much neutral to this statement. I know of some friends who would hate the bf of the best friend if they dun treat them right, but to me I don't feel the need to hate them. I treat them as per normal if I see them around; Afterall it's between the both of them. Why should I hate him coz of what happen between them? Maybe I'll change my mind in the future; maybe I'm just not so emotionally involved. Meh..

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In whatever you do, family support is of utmost importance. Without their support nothing seems to be worth it. It's not as if u r doing it for them, but the negative energy that comes from it hinders u from performing the best that u can. Very discouraging indeed. Whoever your spouse of family member in the future, give support, encourage and motivate.

Inner peace

I used to hate being alone; would often worry what my life would become if I were to move out and stay alone, the thought of returning to an empty home scares me last time. I would also hate eating alone, coz its so awkward eating alone, that I would prefer sitting with someone and not talk at all then sitting alone. 

Now? Well i've changed my mind. I kinda like being alone. It gives me time to think and reflect on my life, having the freedom to do what I want to do whenever I want to. I find myself achieving more at home alone then when people are at home with me.  I dun mind eating alone, coz I like to observe the people around me, and wander off in my own fantasy land thinking what their life would be. I'm weird like that :) I know. 

Well, today ends the 9 day mark of my freedom. I didn't do anything wild, go crazy and paint the town red. I was just merely enjoying the peace, and I liked it. Didn't go clubbing, drink booze or go on road trips. Not my kind of lifestyle, I used to think I'm the outgoing type but really.. Only to a certain extend, beyond that I'm pretty much a homey person :) 

Downhill

It's been a downhill week this week. Since Monday, nothing seems to be happening right. One wave after another, I thank God I had the strength to pull through. I thank God I had friends who were there for me and the miraculous things he has done for me despite of my circumstances.

Last Thursday, I attended a funeral of a friend's brother. Passed away at a tender age of 20, he left so suddenly after being hit by a lorry, without any heart preparation for the situation to happen. Having cancer suddenly feels like a better option. I didn't know the brother personally, nor have I spoken to him before, but through lives that he has touched while he was alive, made me know that he was a great man, a man of faith, a man of great love. Someone even in his last moments on earth, in a coffin, still manages to touch lives of those who attended the funeral through the people he once loved and cared for. His life testimony inspired me, encouraged me and made me re-evaluate my life, thinking about it now still saddens me. Life is so fragile, you don't know what is gonna happen tomorrow. His departing taught me to value the people in your life, for you do not know when your time to meet the maker comes. His life shared through the eulogy made by his 2 sisters and his girlfriend, encouraged me and inspired me to be a person like him. Someone who has the passion for people, who loved unconditionally, passion for Christ, and beneath it all humble and cheerful/ Almost everyone who wrote an eulogy for him has a tinge of cheekiness in their speech reflecting his jovial and playful character when he was alive. Family members were shocked to see so many unfamiliar faces in the crowd that they had to change the venue of the wake due to overwhelming number of visitors, and that is how many lives that he has touched at just 20 years old. Perhaps maybe it's my first time attending a funeral thats why it seem so sad, everything said of the deceased was good and flowery because in which funeral would an eulogy be read as such : "He was a thief, a liar and always cheated when he had the chance, a good for nothing lad who deserves to die!" I couldn't help but think, one day if I died, who will do my eulogy? Will anyone attend my funeral? What good things have I done on earth which deserves to be mentioned? and then I realized I haven't done much...haven't left footprints on this earth, everyday was spent recklessly. It's a great wake up call to change my lifestyle, my attitude, my character, to re-evaluate my life once more.

Something which was said during the funeral can be applied so effectively in the tragedy that happen just a day before the funeral."....the Lord gave and the Lord has taken away..." That was the answer of my question to God on why this happened to me. It was partially my own silly mistake as well, but I do question, why me? Isn't your hand of protection upon me? Aren't You with me Lord? but that one sentence gave me rest, and if it is thy will then so be it. I forgive the person who did it, and am grateful for the subtle things that arise from it.

Definitely an eventful week that has taught me many life lessons during the journey. I could suddenly understand and comprehend certain things in life, things which were often taken for granted or just didn't know the value of. Lesson learnt and life goes on...........

Dissertation

Someone once told me, "If someone says you are rich, don't deny it, say "thank you" and be grateful for what you have." So I was in University of Malaya today, giving out my questionnaires to students there wanting to know their perception towards what motivates them.Naturally being an outsider there, people gave me a look the moment they see the Taylor's logo on my questionnaire. I can understand that they are thinking "what are you doing here?" coz some say it out loud while some gave me the what-are-you-doing-here look. Coming to the main point, there is this one guy, who I gave my questionnaire to, after collecting it from him and just about to leave, I heard him scoffing away "huh, Taylor's......all the "you qian ren" place" When I overheard him, I felt disappointed? angry? I dunno, it was a mixed feeling, but I knew I wanted to go back and give him a piece of my mind; but then again I thought what was the point, so I just smirked and went away.

I was imagining in my mind, "rehearsing the scenario" if i were to give him a piece of my mind that not all Taylorians are rich, that some of us have to work hard to sustain a scholarship and take up loans and that he should just mind his own business and play his expensive smartphone. Anyway, this post is not about hating this guy or anything, because when I come to think about it, I am privileged to be able to receive branded education from Taylor's, to be able to pursue whatever course I want in a campus that provides that campus experience and to be honest, my family is quite well off also, though not rich but enough to sustain a comfortable lifestyle. I suppose why people have a bad impression on people who are perceived rich because they are always being perceived as spoiled and pampered whether by their own experience or by the media. So I suppose, if someone calls you rich, just say "thank you" and be grateful for what you have, even if you are not rich; and as long as you know your heart that you are not the spoiled brat that other people perceive you to be then it's ok, because at the end of the day, that person is a nobody, and you live for yourself and your expectations and not what others want you to be. I'm blessed =)

Random thought

Shopping with my mom today triggered a memory of mine. As a very young girl, my mom has trained me to guard eggs with the utmost care. I remember how I used to hover over the tray of eggs, making sure that no threat can harm those precious eggs. And even if I had lots of grocery bags and other people offer to help me carry, I would only pass them the other bags and keep the bag with the tray of eggs for myself to carry. It was as if I was destined to carry the eggs.. Guarding it like it was my young. Lol I had pretty good training I must say ;)
I remember when I was younger too when my mum and I go into departmental stores and we went to the kitchen ware section, all those glass and plates and my mum would bark at me, "Don't simply touch things, keep ur hands by your side!" and I would just guai guai listen like a soldier. I wonder what if i challenge the order, and place a finger on the glassware, what would my mama do..

malacca

Went on an impromptu day trip to Melacca to surprise a friend was turning 21. Plan was a little failed coz we did not take into considerations that he would go out with his mom, so in the end we waited outside his house for quite some time, but at least he was surprised, no surprise plan always goes according to plan.

It was a long time since i last went to Melacca, it has been years, and going back there was certainly exciting. I liked the place, maybe coz it's different than the skyscrapers i see everyday or maybe it's the architecture of the buildings, or maybe it was coz i'm in a holiday mood lol so our first stop after picking up the birthday boy was to head to Jonker Street. The sun in Melacca somehow is hotter dunno why, or maybe it's coz i'm wearing long sleeves and thick jeans, but yea it was a sunny day. We stopped by this place to eat lunch and walk around Jonker Street. After walking under the scorching sun for some time, we walked by this cafe called Modscafe and since we were all feeling to hot and sticky, decided to stop by and have some coffee under the nice cool air-conditioner. The place looks really cozy, my style of ambience. I like those country ambience, very white...calming and cozy. There was this Hippie Volkswagen van inside the cafe as part of their deco, pretty cool. And we just sat there and chit chat. We were forced to order min  item off the menu, and though i dun drink coffee i was forced to buy at least a cheese cake to comply with the T&C =/ thats the only downside of the place.

 After tea, we continued walking and did some window shopping, the clothes there are really cheap, but unfortunately didn't buy anything. The we went to the famous red brick church, and since it was so famous, i decided to take a picture of it with me in it of course! There was a wedding photo shoot which was taking place right next to me also, how romantic... Anyway we stop by for Durian Cendol, which was yummy ^^ and then head off to this fort museum. There got this KTM train, not bad, the old version looks classic and nice, as if like in those WWII times, and yea, took another picture...typical tourist.

Before heading back to KL, we stopped by to eat Satay Celup. All these while i thought satay celup was real satay mana tahu go there only i realised that it was actually lok lok. but it was YUMMY! loved it, the sauce though my friend say was disgusting (coz they recycle and the sauce got many other people's saliva in it and God knows how many nights the sauce has been recycled for) but what you dun know won't kill you, so makan only la. Fantastic la...so far, no stomach ache! It's an accomplishment ;) Finially after filling up our stomachs we headed back to KL and reached around 9pm. We basically just ate and ate and ate while we were there, the mouth non-stop moving hahaha it was an eventful day, came home dead tired, hit the pillow and dosed off right away after washing up.

Pictures

Looking at my junior's pictures, reminds me of the time back when I was in form 5...the good ol' high school days. Looking at their innocent faces and perhaps even awkward fashion sense, my goodness...those are going to change in years to come. I always find it how amazing, especially evident in girls the changes they go through after they left high school and enter college. The changes are like huge wan weih..from "meh" to "VA VA VOOM" I still find in shocking when I look through my news feed and see school mates who have changed so dramatically and I go " oh my goodness, this woman so hot liao, last time....oh mai gosh?!" hahhaaha pretty mean of me, but hey as long as the ending is "sudah cantik" then ok d. I mean it's great being pretty and all, but looks isn't everything, and I believe if a woman has confidence, i think thats a beauty that should be appreciated too. 

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On another note, we humans always think that the grass is always greener on the other side. We take things that are right in front of us for granted. It always looks more "fun" being in other people's lives, more "fun" being in the occasion that they are in, more "fun" IF you had friends like that etc... but then when you think of it, you don't know what others are going through. What you see is only the "fun" side of things. Besides, birds of the same feather flock together..imagine, you who do not have that type of lifestyle, mixing with ppl of that lifestyle, at the end of the day, it's you who is going to suffer, it looks "fun" in the pictures, but sometimes you are just not on par to that kind of lifestyle. 

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It's always nice to have friends who are there for you 24/7, always by their phone and if you call them would listen intently to you....but then again my lifestyle isn't like that...i sleep early, sleep like a pig so even when phone calls come in, i'm dead, my phone is not with me all the time and the list goes on so basically I'm not the kind of friend people come running to to spill their dirty little secrets to, always the last to know the latest happenings. I know and am grateful that I have friends who will be there for me when I need them, but it feels kindda sad that I cannot return the favour. But then again, we all have a place in this world, our talents may not lie in listening and giving advise to the needy , but we do serve another purpose. I try to help out in whatever way I can according to my limit when a friend needs me. So basically I may not be there to listen all the time, but I will make the effort and energy to help out in whatever way I can. I believe everyone has a purpose in life, though our purpose may not be earth saving kindda stunt or "useful" to the way the world sees it, but sometimes it's your mere existence or your little act of kindness that could change lives, and make small ripples into big waves. In a nutshell, our gifts or talents might not be the "useful" gifts and talents that the world perceives it as but our gifts still do serve a purpose and I hope you don't hide that gift because it's "stupid" but use it to make a difference in this world =) Make this world a better place!      

random

Just read an article about acid attacks happening around the world especially in Cambodia, Pakistan India and Bangladesh. Its quite sad to read coz these ladies did nothing wrong, and some of them are splashed with acid just because they are beautiful, that their man could not stand other man whistling and staring at her, that they laugh too loud, that they go to school, that they reject love from men. Apart from being beautiful and getting ppl whistling at me, I would be guilty and be splashed by sulphuric acid til i disintegrate into thin air.....especially for laughing too loud. Jokes aside, these women's lives are ruin in just mere seconds, and according to their community, becomes a liability to their family because these women would not be able to find a husband. Some who has a husband, would then be abandoned by their husbands because of their disfigured looks.

That being said, it got me thinking... what would I do, if my husband/boyfriend would to meet such a tragedy? Words would immediately say, of course I would stick by his side! But in reality would I? So much more easier said than doing it...the amount of patience and care required, motivation and perhaps even more liability as there is less income coming in but more money going out. Something Ariel said which was although blunt but very true indeed - love cannot put food on the table, made me laugh but yea so true... then it got me thinking of Chris Medina, he was going to marry his gf, but just before the wedding, she met with an accident and made her paralysed waist down. It was extra sad for her coz they weren't married yet, he could have just left her. If i've not mistaken, i think i read somewhere that she even gave him the green light to leave her and find another woman, but he chose to stay by her side which inspired him to write this song "what are words" and what he said was also true, "what are words if you really don't mean them when you say them? What are words if they're only for good times then they're done" It's deep the lyrics that he wrote, but it sure takes lot's of courage to make the decision he made. I think if I was the victim, I would let my other half go, so that he would not get burden with my affairs, but then again not as if I would have the strength to force him to stay with me either so thats why might as well just let go. Ok....I'm done crapping....it's late, good night.  

Procrastination

It intrigues me, the arguments that goes on in my head when I procrastinate. Really, the only tough part is the beginning, once you have started, it seems like, it wasn't as hard as I thought it was. One thing that really hinders me from doing something is that i tell myself that it is hard, I don't know how to do it, i want it to be perfect and the list of excuses goes on and on, and I find myself spending time browsing through the internet on unrelated stuff and i end up not accomplishing anything....at all...and minutes turns to half an hours to hours to days and subsequently to weeks. So basically the argument that goes on in my head was just like the cartoons; an angel vs a demon. I wonder if its the right brain telling the left or does arguments takes place on the same side of the brain...i dunno, but whatever it is, it was a conversation, one giving excuses and the other logical thinking and reasoning. What exactly went on in my head today was this "It's so hard to do, I don't know how to go on about it, what am I going to crap about?" and then this louder voice said " so you think if you leave it alone it will accomplish on it's own? at the end of the day, you still have to do it, leaving it there day after day would not accomplish anything at all, and the later you do it, the less time you will have" and after that argument, I actually started work, and finished it. Wasn't as hard as I expected it to be. Kudos brain...Kudos

Holidays

Been procrastinating way too long here =/ suppose to start on my dissertation but one day leads to another and nothing was done...

Just finished watching Iris, darn good korean drama man. One episode that keeps you hooked to the next. Once you start, it's the end for you, 20 episodes of action packed drama. The story is about the unification of South Korea and North Korea and Iris is a secret organization trying to prevent the unification because they reap profits out of war..nasty. However somehow watching the show, it made me had this thinking that we as civilians are like chess pieces and our government, the players. The ones who would be sacrificed are the people - just like chess pieces on the chess board; and the player, no matter what wrong move they make stays alive. When the PM of S. Korea was asked(in the show of course!): "why is the unification of the North and South so important that so many lives has to be sacrificed, we were living nicely and peacefully previously". The PM just replied " If a little sacrifice is not made, then greater plans cannot take place". Which is true, but yea just made me thought of us as a mere chess piece to the government....choose your government wisely! But spoiler here, the PM wasn't part of Iris, he just really really want to unite the 2 nations.

This one week was not productive at all -.- one of the reason was well the drama mentioned above. 1 hour per episode weih T.T and then they kept the bait at the end so you would watch the next episode straight away....and there goes time. Just like that...

Malaysia boleh!

Malaysia has the potential of becoming like the movies I watch on TV. Ok fine, not has the potential, it is exactly like the movies already. I find it terrifying yet somewhat amaze that all these do exist. 14 cases of shooting has already been reported in the last 3 months, and these shootings took place in broad daylight, well one of them was at night with high speed chasing. 2 very bizarre case which caught my attention was the shooting of AmBank founder Najadi and chief of MyWatch R. Sri Sanjeevan. What I find really fascinating was the fact that the underworld does exist here in Malaysia where police would arrange for spies to spy on the baddies. Apparently Mr. Sanjeevan knows some secrets of the underworld thats why he was to be assassinated but he managed to drive his car and sped away before going to the hospital to receive treatment. It was also reported that he was actually tipped off earlier by his spies that people were after him......and I thought all these only happens in movies, specifically speaking TVB and Hong Kong movies where ppl shoot and gangs gather in broad daylight; and all these are happening not only in the same country where I am but in the state that I'm living in too...It's not safe anymore. The other one is Najadi, it was reported that he got assassinated because of a business deal that went sour. That is also another scenario which i thought only happens in movies, but there you go again, broad daylight, with many ppl around and BAM just like that....DEAD, right in Cheras man...no joke weih; and the killers are roaming free, macam James Bond weih, paid to kill....what is becoming of this society? All for the sake of money.....I think that's why the Bible says that "the love of money is the root of all kinds of evil" If only people would share their wealth, help the poor, perhaps this society would not be so bad, I read a piece of news today, this van driver was also shot dead by someone, and when the police checked his identity, he was apparently responsible for 5 robberies in the past, but his family described him as a loving brother and son who cared for the family. Perhaps if these people got help, they wouldn't end up to what they are today. Perhaps he stole and rob for the sake of the survival of their families, though I do not approve of his way of stealing or robbing and his actions were wrong, but his intentions were good, and I just thought that if only maybe someone would have approach him, or at least give him a chance, he wouldn't end up as what he is today. haih...

Higher the hopes, greater the crash

It's like a positive relationship between hopes and crash. The higher the hopes, the greater the crash. I suppose things like this happens to keep people humble so that the "economy" would be self-sustaining bringing it back to equilibrium point. Nah~ just crapping, won't really bring it back to equilibrium point but yea, it does make a person humble. Well if you are reading this, I fail to agree with your point that great teams who starts strong always crashes at the end. Reason simply being perhaps you have been putting too much focus on it. Take the Bill Gates and Steve Job example, both didn't finish college but made it big in the industry; does that mean that everybody who doesn't finish college would make it big in the industry? Well as much as we wish it was reality, it's not. Not every college drop-out is successful in the end, it's just that people highlight these two people and put focus on them. That being said, I don't think all groups who started out strong would end with a crash, it's just that you so happen to highlight those and focus on them. How about those groups who started strong and end strong? I'm sure there are tons of those. Just that maybe no one wants to put focus on them coz it's expected of them, but if a strong team fails, no one would let them forget it. I suppose teams who started out strong perhaps have a HIGHER chance of crashing coz of their ego and they tend to think highly of themselves which result in them being complacent which lead to the crash, but i think sometimes things have to happen to give us a tight slap across the face, a wake up call and humble ourselves and stand up again. Failure is the beginning of success right? F.A.I.L. = first attempt in learning! so it's okay =) just pick up yourself and learn the lesson, don't commit it in the future.  

There is HOPE

It's raining now =) Never been so happy to see rain, I've always preferred a sunny day over a rainy one, but because of the terrible haze, I welcome it with open arms. Besides it's raining at night, looks like I'm gonna enjoy my sleep tonight!

Just watched Monster University today after HR class got cancelled quite suddenly. I wouldn't have even come for the first class if i knew HR was cancelled, but oh well since i was already in campus, might as well go la. Confusing la Taylor's, first say got class then say no class, then lecturers also confuse so one cancel class one say got class -.- anyway, I needed a break after a tedious week, so yea my friends and I went for a movie after class. I didn't know it was 10 years ago since Monster Inc. came out, i was surprised when my friend said "OMG after 10 years, the sequel came out" It doesn't feel like 10 years at all....

I thought the movie was ok, but then I've also brought back a lesson with me after watching the movie. In life, sometimes we aren't cut out to be the way we want ourselves to be. We may want to be something, but though we may try and give our best and work harder than our peers, we somehow are just not meant to be "it". And in those times, you may feel that "y do i always have to work so hard, yet there are just some people who couldn't care less, make no effort at all yet they can still be "it" " Well then, i suppose life purpose for you is not be that, but something else. The movie also taught me that teamwork is important, Mike is a monster who works harder than the other monster to be part of the scaring monster, the "in" crowd , the heroic monster, but he just wasn't cut out to be it, no matter how he tried, he just wasn't scary looking. But he has all the knowledge, he knows what to do. Sullivan on the other hand, is the monster who doesn't care, does require hardwork yet be able to be "it", to be popular/heroic, however he can only scare but does not know the techniques. So when both Mike and Sullivan teams up, they become a great team and definitely a stronger team. One more lesson which i learn was, to be optimistic in whatever you do. Do it wholeheartedly and happily. After Mike and Sullivan was expelled from University, they worked at Monster Inc. as a mail delivery boy. Imagine, from Uni with high flying dreams to a delivery boy...most of us would be shattered, but the both of them took it in their stride, and made history by delivering the most mail in the year, they were optimistic when they entered the mailing room " this is the most exciting job in the world!" they went from mailroom to cafeteria, to scream tin to scare team. So eventually, they made their dreams come true. Sometimes, there is not always a straight road to your destination, and when it's not a straight road, do not despair because the curved road will still bring you there. It will take a longer time, but enjoy the view, make history and get to the place you want to be =D  pretty inspiring~  

Interesting...

It's weird how hairstyle and spectacles could make a difference in a person's appearance. It's sounds so DUH! but seriously... I've worn the same dress and blouse before, but it's only now that people say, wow you look good in that dress when the only difference is that I'm not wearing my spectacles. So when I wear specs, the same dress and blouse was not so good looking....interesting. I suppose that's why nobody could recognize Clark Kent as Superman since he doesn't wear spectacles anymore and style his hair a little differently lol the wonders a pair of spectacles can do, but if it were the other way round, from a non specky person to wear specs, somehow that person is still recognizable...interesting isnt it?

It's like Beauty and the Geek, my favourite episode is always the make-over episode, gosh...the geeks looks soo good! they are handsome! so from my conclusion, no such thing as ugly people, all it takes is some grooming and SHAZAM gorgeous hunks. And one thing i like about beauty and the geek, they dun emphasize on the beauty/handsomeness of the participants, rather their character. Cos the first few episodes were just pure interaction between the beauties and the geeks, it's only until the later episode which each geek gets a make-over! and even before the make-over, some beauties were already falling in love with the geeks. SO....conclusion is, you don't need to be handsome to win a beauty, it just takes your heart, the beauty from within =)

 

yet another episode of..

GOOD FENG SHUI DAY!! 3 assignments due on the same day! YAHOO! HOORAY! Haven't started anything yet still got time to blog! I'm so gonna die.

Childhood

Well, not a child really. Being back with high school mates, really bring back memories when I was in high school. All the stupid things I did with friends, all the nonsense, but yet entertaining to reminisce about. And since I was reminiscing, I thought, hey why not jot it down somewhere, where next time when i'm grey and wrinkly, I would be able to look back and laugh. I do still think of it and laugh. Wondering why I did the things I did back then.

Memory #1
I remember I loved to play under the rain, this was in form 1.I would walk under the rain in my PJK shirt, get wet and my mum had to get down the car and scold me for not waiting in the bus stop for her and for playing with the rain. I'm amazed how I never got sick from being under the rain, dramas are really just exaggerating it right? Not so sure, but now macam taufu, kena little bit rain also faster faster mandi, takut sakit =/

Memory #2
How childish I was when I first confessed my feelings to the guy i liked (which lasted what...3 days?) So stupid weih when i read the messages hahahahahaha it's was so....i dunno.....bimbotic lol but i think i may do that too in the future who knows...=/ love makes people bimbotic, except that time it wasn't love. Gosh...and it was also then i started to form my philosophy in love. nuff said

Memory #3
First time I cried in public. From 3. Cried over something stupid also. just because kelas tambahan clashed with choir practice. Ms. Foo..... never liked her ever since then. I remember I walked to the toilet and cried, then macam face problem, the kakak have to come in and wash the toilet -.- can't you just leave me alone?! so yea lo, kena halau out of the toilet. Then very funny, as i roam about in the corridors, Jian Yong and Yu Beng keep on following from a disance. After so many years, to the both of these guys, i appreaciate your concern for me, thank you :') haih...my EQ so low back then, makes me wanna laugh. If i were to go back, I would have handled it like a boss nyek nyek nyek

Memory #4
I've seen lots of funny crying episodes. Hou Yi and Shao Yong case, and Tania and Abby case. super funny la. Shao Yong threw Hou Yi's capsule of stars on the floor, HY in return threw SY wallet out the window. HY cry coz no more stars, SY cried coz HY say no girl will like him....like WTH? hahaahhaa then Tania got frightened by Abby, Tania frightened until cry, Abby got frightened coz Tania frightened then Abby cry also, then after recess they both cry and hug each other...WTH? hahahaha

Memory #5
Those SPM days were everybody was so chillax, those basketball days being flower vase, dodgeball days and ping pong days =) i wonder where have my guts gone. down the drain i suppose. I used to be very game for any game, want to try new things, but now macam sudah tahu malu =/ not sure a good thing or a bad thing. I remember studying harder for PMR than for SPM. SPM macam too chillax d. Oh i remember celebrating Mag's birthday with mooncake lol and trying to get people to come to school to celebrate was HARD. Kena scolded by Hou Yi, felt so down after that.

Memory #6
I remember walking to Tania's house after school, just chilling at her place, helping her with her endless house chores,cooking Maggi mee together. Up till today I still don't know if the "failed" maggi mee that i cooked was really liked by Tania, but apparently she said she loved it and ate it all up. Stupid things i would do with her like pretending i was her and calling her boyfriend. come to think of it.....wth was i thinking -.- so lame weih... but i remember those moments where we just lay on the bed and talk. Going to her house meant getting fat, coz she really just feeds you and feeds you.

Memory #7
The curi-curi moments i went to McD and centrepoint. I wasn't allowed to exit school grounds, but oh well i succumbed to peer pressure. I mean how could you expect me to stay in school when everyone was having fun at McD? And the one time we took taxi to 1u after school, that was like deadly for me already, i wasn't allowed to go 1u with friends even on weekends, what more weekdays. But thank god I got lovely brother who picked me up from 1u back home and helped me keep secret summore.

Memory #8
My tomyam moments with Hui Hwa, Xin Wei and Sook Yue. Drama betul those librarian days. All the politics that we played. I think Mr. Wong headache also hahaha A moment with ah Hwa and the gang always ends up with stomach ache from laughing too much.

Memory #9
Perhimpunan moments where we love to pick up little stones on the pavement and throw it at people. sometimes collecting so much that can make "fireworks" in the air after Azizah's speech. We sometimes collect and put in people's pockets too. I remember i never liked Azizah's speech, she always says "saya tidah mahu cakap banyak" but always talk till the cow comes home. Apa la! oh and the school song we sang, always "SMKBU TIGA" is the loudest of the whole song hahahhaa

Memory #10
I suddenly want to include primary school memories...I only had 2 friends in primary school. Siew Wei Mei, Chuah Ee Leen. 3 of us, always fight, as if 2 friends is not little enough. Our fights are epic lol over stupid things as well. I wonder why we even make an issue out of it. Those papers that we pass around when teacher is not looking, gosh....so childish hahahhaha I still keep those papers, and everytime i read it, it brings so much joy and embarrassment to me. How we wanted to make a magazine back then, so gung-ho but the spirit i think only lasted 1 week? then sudah tak jadi. How we quarrelled over the entry of a new member in our so called gang, how we quarrelled again coz me and Ee Leen has someone we like and not Wei Mei, how Wei Mei teased us and we didn't like it at all, and oh my goodness, the language we use back then, profanities macam yes, didn't know 12 year old girls are capable of such language. oh and omg, how much i wanted a training bra just coz everybody was wearing one -.- i didn't have any flesh on me, but yet i wanted one LOL still makes me laugh hahahaha  

Yet again

Here I am again, stuck on what is suppose to be "Good Feng Shui Day" it really intrigues me.....really. I find it funny when I have all the free time in the world, there are no activities being organized. Then when I have an agenda already, suddenly everything seems to clash on that very same day, and I have to make really tough choices trying to accommodate everyone. This weekend was an example, and the coming Saturday 8th June is another perfect example. Sometimes I wish I could split myself into 2-3 parts to accommodate for all the events. 8th June will be a day where I won't be at home from 12pm to 12am, back-to-back events  non-stop @.@ why la....WHY?! Last Friday was suppose to be flying from campus to church and right after that to the airport to send my brother off >.< hectic weih...why clash on the same day la, other days no good meh? Oh yea, I find it funny too when I have all the semangat to do assignments and also thats the time when people find me to talk on Facebook hahahaha not that I don't like people talking to me on fb, i do enjoy it, and i get delighted from it since I dun get many people talking to me since Form 1? so thats how deprived I am but yea.....timing just couldn't get better huh? and the semangat fizzles out and i'm back to procrastination LOL the odds are never in my favour

OMG, yea man, I finally finished the trilogy of Hunger Games.....so good.....so good...finally bought it using the 1 Malaysia voucher, box set for RM 49.90, totally worth it man..finished the remaining 2 books within 4 days, and i was surprised I placed the book priority over my mid-terms Finance Management assessment. Too addictive....The assessment wasn't that bad, can pass la some of you might be thinking this cannot be true, Wei Mae never procrastinates, very hard-working. LOL well it intrigues me as well how people look at me, outwardly good, inwardly? just another normal student ;) just like how people think i'm so collected and all, but what they don't know is the war that goes on in my head. world war 3 man....

gravity

What goes up must come down right? And the best part is it comes down with an acceleration of 10m/s2. So the harder you throw things upwards it's gonna come back at you worst. And then you know how it feels like...ouch!

End of Internship

3 months passed way too fast, weekdays zooms pass; weekends flies by even faster and before I know it, its time to pack. Felt a little sad as i packed as there goes my beach life, the sun, fun and sea water oh and the freedom >.<  But then during my 12 weeks here, I've learnt a tremendous lot from the people around me; from my work to my roommates to my ex-course mate to the church members at the church that I attend. I must say this, you will never know how a stranger feels until you've been one yourself, and the people here showed me great hospitality and here I am thinking I know all about hospitality. 

This is our security manager of The Westin Langkawi Resort & Spa, a very friendly manager. Though I do not work directly under him, but we do liaise with one another sometimes. I used to chase after him to get his signature and he would in turn come to HR office to kacau me to see the reaction of my boss lol. He reminds me of my dad, perhaps the hairstyle maybe? lol He is someone willing to share stories and experiences with the people around him. Haiyo, don't see them so old ar, actually they all macam kiddo also, bunch of crazy people la....

Got this autographed card + pictures from my roommates, who the Taylor's gang came quite attached to. Though we may have our ups and downs but isn't that all part and parcel of relationships? The memories we create and all the fun times we had together.... unforgettable. I'll cherish these memories that we have created in Langkawi forever, and hey it's not the end yet, we are still to meet up in KL what the heck!

These are the awesome people I met in church in FGA Langkawi =)

This is Isaac, well Captain Isaac *bleh* younger than me (months only la, i not that old ok?) but already a pilot and teaching future pilots to fly. He has a great life testimony and it is God's favor and blessings that he came to this position in life. A real miracle I must say. Oh, and he is a great pianist too, real talented can't help but stare in amazement how his fingers just fly across the keyboard without him knowing the songs. It was great to have known him, real calm person but i suppose you have to be if you are gonna be a pilot =/ 

 This is Sister Angie, she couldn't come on Friday so thats why she brought me, Hoby and Isaac out for dinner on Wednesday. Such a pity I only got close to her towards the end of my 3 months there. She is a mother who goes hang out with her daughter's friend wan, lol her daughter, Carmen and Isaac and herself macam always hang out with each other wan. Lol didn't manage to hug her good bye as we reach my hostel quite late =/

 From left: Brian, Hoby and Isaac. I believe we were the only "young" ones there. Not many youths I must say, but nevertheless the people at the church are really friendly la.

The couple who sends me to church every Friday: Sister Norah and Brother Mike. Angels sent from heaven la seriously, I was praying that I wouldn't have to spend RM24 weekly just to go to church but I also prayed that if it is His will, RM24 would be it then, i'll treat it as an investment towards His kingdom, but the Lord is a prayer answering God and He sent me this couple to chauffeur me to church every Friday ^^ Lovely couple they are, reminds me of my parents too, coz of their constant bickering =/

This is Pastor Eng Kor and his wife Sister Suan Kee =) They made all the effort to bring the "homeless" trainees and people working in Langkawi together for steamboat dinner at their house. Not only that, they also brought me and Hoby to watch the sunset as well as to eat dinner at Cenang on our dunno how many weeks there. 

Alright..enough of people, before we left Langkawi for good, we took our last tour to Pantai Cenang to bid farewell to the sea and we ate our brunch at FatCupid. Really nice and relaxing place to dine in; and the owners were really REALLY REALLY friendly. They even arranged for us to tour the rooms after knowing how interested we were with their boutique style hotel. 

                                                      

The place was very white and vintage, small but cozy and the architecture is chic and nice. Really secluded so once you enter the place it is as if you are in a different world. This place is a very green oriented, eco-friendly boutique hotel, where they use natural pesticides to shoo away mosquitoes like the lemon grass and the nyamuk tree lol, dunno it's real name but nyamuk tree la! The desserts were to die for as well, I ate the Panna Cota while my friends ate the brownies with peanut butter ice-cream. Brownies with peanut butter ice-cream, you are on my to-bake-list!

I love this sign board, it's so...overseas!! Good morning in many different languages with the person's name who came from each country written on the sign board so basically guest can come and just write their names on the sign board =) We didn't get to dine in here at the Breakfast Bar but no worries, there is always a next time ;)

This is The Cliff restaurant. My friends and I macam tai tais go there chit chat, chill and drink mocktails lol fantastic view of Pantai Cenang and I must say this even if it sounds jakun, the cliff and rocks looks so amazing, just love the view la. Oh and while we were tai tai-ing, the LIMA people were practicing so we manage to see some formation of jets flying pass Pantai Cenang. 

                                                 

After tasting the sweetness of travelling , I feel like, travelling is my thing, I would like to bagpack one day and just travel around the world. It's amazing how many people you can meet just by travelling, I've so far already met 2 groups of strangers, and one of them has been bugging us to yum cha with them back here in KL. Amazing huh? how we can meet people just by travelling together. 

                                           

And so with this, farewell to clear blue skies. sandy beaches, starry nights, fun times and relaxing days. It's time to hit back the books and concentrate for the next couple of semesters. It was a fun filled trip while it lasted, but now it's over and the months ahead are going to be challenging so JIA YOU AH!

Random

做人有时候真辛苦...

Sometimes it's not that the person is heartless and cruel, but it's to teach the other person a lesson so that they won't do it again in the future. If you let them get away with it, they would take advantage of you thinking that "it's ok, he/she won't mind, very nice wan that person!"

At first u might think that, "wah, so mean man why she like that wan?" but thinking of the big picture, it saves a lot of disappointment in the future. 长痛不如短痛嘛.. Perhaps another way would be to still help that person but also bring the person one side to talk about your displeasure.

I think sometimes the person does not really feel angry towards you but they just want you to learn the lesson because sometimes saying "nvm la" wouldn't make u pai seh enough to learn your lesson so I guess you just have to show the ugly side of yourself just to set things back to their respective place.

I suppose it's how the way you look at things, if u see it as a small picture, yes it's mean, but look at the big picture and they will know their boundaries.

My adventure in Langkawi

Well not really adventure, it's just industrial training but I've done a lot of things which I wouldn't have done back at home so it becomes an adventure la, well for me at least. Some of u do it on a daily basis -.- so here are a list of "My Firsts" in Langkawi

My First #1
Ive never slept so late b4 in my life. I broke the record here man. Sleeping late has become like a weekly affair. Every Saturday to be exact. Last night, my friends and I sang KTV til 1am in the morning and realized that taxi couldn't be found anywhere, so we walked all the way from town back to the quarters O.O a 30+ minutes walk in the midnight. It was so cold and dark, and luckily we took the main road that night coz if we were to use the shortcut that my other friends love to use, there would be some eerie happenings again and perhaps maybe in the room too? >.< (long story about that encounter, creepy, but thank God it was only 1 night, couldn't sleep after that night, too frightened) we got so hungry we ate and cooked Maggi in the room that night which was actually forbidden so this picture must be kept here until my other friends finish their training, or we will all get into trouble when management finds out.

My First #2
I gave my first time of singing K to my bunch of friends here :) they brought me there on my birthday after the quite "failed" attempt to surprise me hahaha but I played along, or their efforts would be in vain. But was still a bit surprise when the chef personally came out to deliver the cake lol

My First #3
It was also on my birthday night that I drove a car other than my car. I get really uneasy and nervous when I drive other ppls car. But that day dunno y, crazy or what, I offered to drive -.- got myself into my own mess. But yea I realized it wasn't that bad. After shaking for a distance of the journey, I got used to the car. Then after singing K til 12.30am my friend dropped my other friend back to her ulu quarters which the journey took 1 hour so I came back at 2 am. When I came back, my roommates were surprisingly still awake with 1 of my roommate having a fever. So all 4 of us drove out to look for a 24 hour clinic. We searched high and low and ended up asking for directions at the police station in the midnight. In the end we went to the hospital where she got her treatment (my goodness, medical fee only RM1 sia! Somemore 2 days MC, I want!!!) got ourselves supper at 3.00am at KFC and went back at 3.45am. I slept at 4.00am that day.

My First #4
Watching a show in the cinema u can call home and choose whichever seat u like and talk so loud and place your feet at the row of seats in front of you. Seriously the whole theatre was ours for the day. So big but only 4 of us. Epic. Nuff said.

My First #5
It's my first time doing practical training away from home. And I've learnt so much here about caring for others. I've experienced genuine hospitality during my stay here and wondered y didn't I extend hospitality like these to people back when I'm in KL. The generosity of the people I met here who took really good care of me.

The hospitality of a friend who lives in Langkawi, took us out almost every other week using his car, time and petrol knowing that we don't have a car and clueless about the place. He doesn't complain but in fact offered to bring us around. And I wonder how come I did not extend this sort of hospitality to him while he was still studying with us in KL. I'm ashamed.

To my roommate who on my first day here took me out shopping for daily essentials and over feeding me with information I loose the information the minute it enters. We barely knew each other but she took the courage to drive a stranger around town. I don't think I would have taken that step but after experiencing this, I would and might if the other party is willing of course.

Last but not least, the couple who fetches me to church every friday and church people I met here, showed me great hospitality as well. You will never know how a stranger feels unless u become one yourself. Everyone in the church greeted and welcomed me, they have so much to offer and not holding back, as long as u ask and it shall be given unto you. The Pastor even brought me and another trainee out to watch the sunset and spend us to dinner and send us all the way back to our quarters. He even opened up his house for us trainees to do our cooking there and bond. To the couple who always bring me to church, never complaining and always drop me back after service. And to think that I do murmur when I have to fetch someone for LG. I sort of understand how she feels now, I used to always have to follow up on whether she is going for LG and that sometimes annoys me, but when it is my turn to hitch a ride frm others I understand that sometimes it isn't your say to tell ppl to pick u up, it is up to the person whether they want to pick u up or not. So from now on I would text her early every Saturday morning to see if she needs transportation just like the old couple did to me. Good values to learn from.

And to think I study hospitality but in actual fact I know nothing. And there goes the first half of my internship here in Langkawi :/ time flies..