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zhadou weih~ study so hard hoping Africa come out in the end Europe come out for the second time...%*#@!*% i thought Europe come out for mid term sure wont come out for final wan la, mana tau kena zha til black black ish! And serious, next time we should listen to what Sean says, whatever he say dun come out sure come out wan, so must study like crazy =.=

Anyway, tomorrow is Earth Hour, last year went out with friends kena scold teruk teruk by both parents...sheesh la this year will be a boring year. I wonder what ppl do during earth hour, do they walk about in the streets like last time we did, or do they stay at home in pitch black darkness looking at each other? or do they just sleep early? i'm thinking of what i should do tomorrow....which would be the better option leh?

Life according to me (science version)

manipulated variable: age
Responding variable : self esteem
fixed variable : my height -.-

the older you get, the lower your self esteem.
therefore age is inversely proportional to the self esteem

thank you

Stressssss

ok since some ppl have been prompting me to revive my blog, and so ngam today got something to write about so yea here goes...

My day started off like a roller coaster ride. I was panicking like high time...ok first of all i have alot to do today like discuss the restaurant thing, then pass up geo project,then collect blazer from serena, then FO presentation and the FO brochure, then have to decide on the press kit and then i still have to do my stupid brochure for my com project. THATS alot to do in a day, so it started like this, i don't blame this friend of mine, really i don't..he didn't know and that was natural as the program was probably new to him. so yea, the brochure turned out wrong, my fault for not doing it at home by myself, but still thanks for helping yea!! so when i reached college, i was really panicking already, the bus was late due to traffic jam, and i have only 40 minutes to get things right and reprint the brochure, usually i would have time in between class but for week 7 i have FO straight away after GEO so basically have to run la. anyway, i have to get it done b4 GEO so i panicked, i dun know how to use the printer, and when i finally do, the final product was wrong, so i decided to redo the whole thing to suit the stupid printer. ( actually not stupid printer, its actually stupid me, didn't realise there was a button to print two page at once correctly, i only figured that out later...stupid huh?) so anyway that stupid brochure cost me and my friend RM9 altogether, thanks to taylors who charge RM1.50 per page , and if you do the maths, i actually printed 2 times b4 i got it correct. There goes all my quota.. then while i was rushing, suddenly serena miss called, want to pass me my blazer and oso cannot find my locker to put my blazer in, die lo~ i rushing here somemore have to collect blazer, somemore class going to start in 10 minutes time(and the lecturer lock doors wan if you are late =.=) somemore i need the blazer for presentation during FO @.@ thats y roller coaster lo but in the end, manage to do the brochure, though not as nice as i wanted it to be but at least its presentable and i beat the lecturer into class yay!!

i stress the whole day until my friend oso say my face so scary hahaha sorry lo~ if i scared you =) everything fell into place after GEO and though FO was very er nervous-ish, but manage to pull it off la hahaha nobody asked us questions =P * i mouthed them not to* hee hee everything turn out well in the end ^^ Praise the Lord! He took care of everything =)

* i changed my profile...since Marcus don't like me to be 17 forever hahaha joking la~

update =)

sorry it took so long for the pics to be uploaded...heh heh i tot these pics were lost already since these pictures were taken with my brother's camera. This years birthday is unforgettable =) thx again my friends, i dunno where i can find ppl like you guys in this whole world =) i only have pictures with me sitting lamely on the floor with the lights, the pictures from my surprise birthday party is with somebody else, so it won't be here =(

An auspicious day

Today was real hectic the moment i woke up from bed. At the top of today's list was of coz my undang test and on the other hand i had an important lecture i have to attend today. So basically, i sat for my undang and then my poor mum have to fetch me from the academy to college.(sounds pretty ordinary? nah...we have to RUSH RUSH RUSH, to make things worst, my mom doesn't know the place since the driving instructor took me there instead of her taking me there + the stupid GPS coundn't find the place.Whats the use of a GPS if it doesn't show the way? so when my mum finally found the place, we sort of RUSHED to the campus and again to make things worst, there was traffic jam >.< and we kept taking detours which end up taking a longer time, and it was almost 11 which is when the lecture actually starts. So i was praying so hard my palms started to sweat. Luckily God heard my prayers, i was in time and what more the computer ngam ngam got technical problem, so i didn't miss anything at all.

Then in college, we had talks talks and more talks and at the end of the day we had this campus team building thing and ya it was fun =) i wasn't daring enough to approach the guys in the first day but today i was forced to communicate with them through this team building thing. So in the end, i got a few more say acquaintance? One thing i hate about new beginnings is i have to make friends all over again, not that its a bad thing but sometimes ( and i felt it today) that there is this sort of invisible barrier, like...its hard to explain. I could feel that some ppl actually have this cold shoulder thingy like i can feel that they don't like my presence.Thank God the day ended and i reached home (special thanks to Janice for the lift)

After dinner i went online onto facebook and i got this overwhelmed feeling by those birthday wishes left by friends. I didn't expect anything like that in my whole life.Last year, every time when one of my friends had a birthday, their homepage would be filled with birthday wishes and sometimes you think that what does it matter if i put a message there, the message i put there felt so insignificant, and then i just thought to myself, if my homepage was like that during my b'day how nice it would be but i later told myself to stop daydreaming. I actually only expected a few people to wish me, probably only 4 ppl? the usual nice ppl and close good friends? But then i was overwhelmed by the number of b'day wishes that all the negative emotions of today was lifted and i felt this new spirit, hope. I was so touched till i wrote what i wrote on my wall, about the gap.People i seldom talked to even stopped by to wish me,which was nice and sweet of them, and thanks to Mior i got extra "wishes" because he was spamming =.= thanks to everyone on FB who lifted my spirits which gave me this sort of weird feeling which feels good.

And the highlight of the day,its so weird...people i don't really know wished me and the people that i know went the extra mile.I mean i wouldn't mind if they just send me an SMS or just wished me on FB ( the weird thing is ppl i dont know do that) but today, something different happened, two friends came to my house to celebrate my birthday (totally unexpected) and even though its just the two of them, they sang at the top of their lungs til i started beating them to lower their voice, the piece of cake even came complete with a candle, and i made another wish =) And then later we all walked down the dark street and the 2nd surprise sufficed. Hanging on the bushes there was this colorfully lighted sign reading "HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAE" ( unfortunately it came out "HAPPY IRTHDAY" some of it kena fused) The effort put in it was tremendous, he even asked the uncle to borrow him the electric supply ( and someone called me thick skin) and took Mag extension cord too, no wonder he was late. i really appreciate the effort, all the hole makings and the electric supply borrowing and the walking to my house when they actually really don't have to do all that, the surprise party was the best ever already, but they went the extra mile to come over and make this birthday even more memorable. Special thanks to Magdalene and Huey Teck who made today special for me =) i don't know what i did to deserve such hospitality from you guys, and even Mag was so sweet, just because she missed the surprise party she has to come celebrate with me today =3 isn't she the sweetest? I haven't got friends like them in my whole life before. They are one of a kind, hard to find like extinct creatures. Thank you very much to the both of you =) and sorry for letting you wait outside, i didn't know you all coming, i thought you all come to pass something only, and i oso thought my brother invited you guys in to play PS2 >.< sorry and thank you for the wonderful experience ^-^

and to put cherry on top of the cake, Kelly and Li Synn specially called up to wish me happy birthday. I'm sorry to Kelly for ending the conversation so abruptly since i was in the changing room busy changing >.< However it was sweet of her to personally call to wish me =) like i said FB would do, and Li Synn called up to sing a birthday song to me ^^ so i heard 2 birthday songs today. Thank you Li Synn and Kelly!! and thank you to ppl who smsed me on the dot at 12 such as Hui Hwa, Sook Yue, Huey teck and Magdalene. and also during the day such as Marcus, Xin Wei, Ester, Xue Yi,Long Xiang and Tania.Many thanks to my brother too, who bought me a SUPER JUNIOR ORIGINAL album ^-^ too bad it doesn't come with concert tickets =P

* everything stated here is arranged chronologically not to what i prioritized
* I'm really really sorry if i left out your name
* pictures will be coming up soon =) have to take it from my brother

Thanks a bunch my friends =)

Ok, so today i was genuinely surprised, even though the day b4 Tania called and ter-telled me that there was a birthday party for me at 1u. I told her i wasn't going since i'm going to tour the campus, which was a beauty but still under construction ( i bet when everything is up and all the carpets are up its going to look magnificent =) so anyway, later on friday Hou Yi sms-ed me to go jalan-jalan, and i told her " no need to pretend la, a lil bird told me already, but i'm not going" ( not in exact words la but something like that lo) And then she just brushed it off her shoulder saying " what little bird? just want to jalan-jalan with you only" ooookkkkaaaaayyy...i knew something was up but i thought as long as i told ppl i'm not going, well they would eventually just cancel the party u c?But nooo....while my parents and i just finished touring the campus, my mum say she wants to go to 1u to wrap her present. Innocent enough, so while we were in the carpark in 1u, i was just telling them " mum, i hope i don't see my friends here, i told them i wasn't coming, and if they were to see me here then i die lo" So everything went as if normal like that, we went to wrap her present, then she say she hungry, so my parents and i went upstairs lo, we seldom eat chilis so i was standing outside there saying " har?! we are eating this ar? very expensive wo" and then she just walks straight into the restaurant even though there was a BIG sign saying " please wait to be seated" so i called out to her lo " you are suppose to wait outside mum!!" and she replied saying theyre service very slow, if you wait outside you will never get a table >.< then the terrible part comes, she asked me to go look at the back of the restaurant to c if there were any place to sit...and then ALL my freinds were there. It took me a while to register, i was like "shit, i was avoiding them and so ngam we were eating at the same place as them!" then jian yong got up and greeted my mom and i was like oh! my mum knew!!! >.< so it was a set up, and i was ya..surprised =) i was made to stand on the chair and make a speech and blow the candles from far far away * and i thought they only did that in TGI Fridays * T.T cruel lol anyway it was fun, and the "smacking me with icing" was a sort of failure but i still kena. haha i really had fun...thx kelly, yee peng, samantha, hui qian and hou yi for the wonderful present =) i will wear the pretty t-shirt during orientation and the BAG!! (just when i was looking for one =) ) thx to Jian Yong for organising the party, and paying on my behalf too =) thx to Marcus, Huey Teck and JY *again* for the cake ^-^Yu Beng and Marcus for the present and Abby,Tania and Yat Hong for making the party complete =) love you guys !! thx alot =D i'm all smiles today because of you guys ^-^

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Oh ya, and there was luke too..i guess i miscounted sorry~ the molten cake or whatever its called will be served today to eat together with my aunts and uncles. Not celebrating anything but just to u know have more ppl around to share the joy ^-^ thx again =D

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Mob wars

she was so happy she found tissue to of coz
help Hen yu wipe, isn't she sweet?

Magdalene took this, dunno y i took this without their knowledge, they were
like that the whole time, i feel so brightok was very Sam Pat, christmas tree oso must take,
but what the heck, so hard can come out dun take picture?

We were outside where Pris work, took a picture
for remembrance, since i cannot come out often