Random thought

Shopping with my mom today triggered a memory of mine. As a very young girl, my mom has trained me to guard eggs with the utmost care. I remember how I used to hover over the tray of eggs, making sure that no threat can harm those precious eggs. And even if I had lots of grocery bags and other people offer to help me carry, I would only pass them the other bags and keep the bag with the tray of eggs for myself to carry. It was as if I was destined to carry the eggs.. Guarding it like it was my young. Lol I had pretty good training I must say ;)
I remember when I was younger too when my mum and I go into departmental stores and we went to the kitchen ware section, all those glass and plates and my mum would bark at me, "Don't simply touch things, keep ur hands by your side!" and I would just guai guai listen like a soldier. I wonder what if i challenge the order, and place a finger on the glassware, what would my mama do..

malacca

Went on an impromptu day trip to Melacca to surprise a friend was turning 21. Plan was a little failed coz we did not take into considerations that he would go out with his mom, so in the end we waited outside his house for quite some time, but at least he was surprised, no surprise plan always goes according to plan.

It was a long time since i last went to Melacca, it has been years, and going back there was certainly exciting. I liked the place, maybe coz it's different than the skyscrapers i see everyday or maybe it's the architecture of the buildings, or maybe it was coz i'm in a holiday mood lol so our first stop after picking up the birthday boy was to head to Jonker Street. The sun in Melacca somehow is hotter dunno why, or maybe it's coz i'm wearing long sleeves and thick jeans, but yea it was a sunny day. We stopped by this place to eat lunch and walk around Jonker Street. After walking under the scorching sun for some time, we walked by this cafe called Modscafe and since we were all feeling to hot and sticky, decided to stop by and have some coffee under the nice cool air-conditioner. The place looks really cozy, my style of ambience. I like those country ambience, very white...calming and cozy. There was this Hippie Volkswagen van inside the cafe as part of their deco, pretty cool. And we just sat there and chit chat. We were forced to order min  item off the menu, and though i dun drink coffee i was forced to buy at least a cheese cake to comply with the T&C =/ thats the only downside of the place.

 After tea, we continued walking and did some window shopping, the clothes there are really cheap, but unfortunately didn't buy anything. The we went to the famous red brick church, and since it was so famous, i decided to take a picture of it with me in it of course! There was a wedding photo shoot which was taking place right next to me also, how romantic... Anyway we stop by for Durian Cendol, which was yummy ^^ and then head off to this fort museum. There got this KTM train, not bad, the old version looks classic and nice, as if like in those WWII times, and yea, took another picture...typical tourist.

Before heading back to KL, we stopped by to eat Satay Celup. All these while i thought satay celup was real satay mana tahu go there only i realised that it was actually lok lok. but it was YUMMY! loved it, the sauce though my friend say was disgusting (coz they recycle and the sauce got many other people's saliva in it and God knows how many nights the sauce has been recycled for) but what you dun know won't kill you, so makan only la. Fantastic la...so far, no stomach ache! It's an accomplishment ;) Finially after filling up our stomachs we headed back to KL and reached around 9pm. We basically just ate and ate and ate while we were there, the mouth non-stop moving hahaha it was an eventful day, came home dead tired, hit the pillow and dosed off right away after washing up.

Pictures

Looking at my junior's pictures, reminds me of the time back when I was in form 5...the good ol' high school days. Looking at their innocent faces and perhaps even awkward fashion sense, my goodness...those are going to change in years to come. I always find it how amazing, especially evident in girls the changes they go through after they left high school and enter college. The changes are like huge wan weih..from "meh" to "VA VA VOOM" I still find in shocking when I look through my news feed and see school mates who have changed so dramatically and I go " oh my goodness, this woman so hot liao, last time....oh mai gosh?!" hahhaaha pretty mean of me, but hey as long as the ending is "sudah cantik" then ok d. I mean it's great being pretty and all, but looks isn't everything, and I believe if a woman has confidence, i think thats a beauty that should be appreciated too. 

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On another note, we humans always think that the grass is always greener on the other side. We take things that are right in front of us for granted. It always looks more "fun" being in other people's lives, more "fun" being in the occasion that they are in, more "fun" IF you had friends like that etc... but then when you think of it, you don't know what others are going through. What you see is only the "fun" side of things. Besides, birds of the same feather flock together..imagine, you who do not have that type of lifestyle, mixing with ppl of that lifestyle, at the end of the day, it's you who is going to suffer, it looks "fun" in the pictures, but sometimes you are just not on par to that kind of lifestyle. 

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It's always nice to have friends who are there for you 24/7, always by their phone and if you call them would listen intently to you....but then again my lifestyle isn't like that...i sleep early, sleep like a pig so even when phone calls come in, i'm dead, my phone is not with me all the time and the list goes on so basically I'm not the kind of friend people come running to to spill their dirty little secrets to, always the last to know the latest happenings. I know and am grateful that I have friends who will be there for me when I need them, but it feels kindda sad that I cannot return the favour. But then again, we all have a place in this world, our talents may not lie in listening and giving advise to the needy , but we do serve another purpose. I try to help out in whatever way I can according to my limit when a friend needs me. So basically I may not be there to listen all the time, but I will make the effort and energy to help out in whatever way I can. I believe everyone has a purpose in life, though our purpose may not be earth saving kindda stunt or "useful" to the way the world sees it, but sometimes it's your mere existence or your little act of kindness that could change lives, and make small ripples into big waves. In a nutshell, our gifts or talents might not be the "useful" gifts and talents that the world perceives it as but our gifts still do serve a purpose and I hope you don't hide that gift because it's "stupid" but use it to make a difference in this world =) Make this world a better place!      

random

Just read an article about acid attacks happening around the world especially in Cambodia, Pakistan India and Bangladesh. Its quite sad to read coz these ladies did nothing wrong, and some of them are splashed with acid just because they are beautiful, that their man could not stand other man whistling and staring at her, that they laugh too loud, that they go to school, that they reject love from men. Apart from being beautiful and getting ppl whistling at me, I would be guilty and be splashed by sulphuric acid til i disintegrate into thin air.....especially for laughing too loud. Jokes aside, these women's lives are ruin in just mere seconds, and according to their community, becomes a liability to their family because these women would not be able to find a husband. Some who has a husband, would then be abandoned by their husbands because of their disfigured looks.

That being said, it got me thinking... what would I do, if my husband/boyfriend would to meet such a tragedy? Words would immediately say, of course I would stick by his side! But in reality would I? So much more easier said than doing it...the amount of patience and care required, motivation and perhaps even more liability as there is less income coming in but more money going out. Something Ariel said which was although blunt but very true indeed - love cannot put food on the table, made me laugh but yea so true... then it got me thinking of Chris Medina, he was going to marry his gf, but just before the wedding, she met with an accident and made her paralysed waist down. It was extra sad for her coz they weren't married yet, he could have just left her. If i've not mistaken, i think i read somewhere that she even gave him the green light to leave her and find another woman, but he chose to stay by her side which inspired him to write this song "what are words" and what he said was also true, "what are words if you really don't mean them when you say them? What are words if they're only for good times then they're done" It's deep the lyrics that he wrote, but it sure takes lot's of courage to make the decision he made. I think if I was the victim, I would let my other half go, so that he would not get burden with my affairs, but then again not as if I would have the strength to force him to stay with me either so thats why might as well just let go. Ok....I'm done crapping....it's late, good night.  

Procrastination

It intrigues me, the arguments that goes on in my head when I procrastinate. Really, the only tough part is the beginning, once you have started, it seems like, it wasn't as hard as I thought it was. One thing that really hinders me from doing something is that i tell myself that it is hard, I don't know how to do it, i want it to be perfect and the list of excuses goes on and on, and I find myself spending time browsing through the internet on unrelated stuff and i end up not accomplishing anything....at all...and minutes turns to half an hours to hours to days and subsequently to weeks. So basically the argument that goes on in my head was just like the cartoons; an angel vs a demon. I wonder if its the right brain telling the left or does arguments takes place on the same side of the brain...i dunno, but whatever it is, it was a conversation, one giving excuses and the other logical thinking and reasoning. What exactly went on in my head today was this "It's so hard to do, I don't know how to go on about it, what am I going to crap about?" and then this louder voice said " so you think if you leave it alone it will accomplish on it's own? at the end of the day, you still have to do it, leaving it there day after day would not accomplish anything at all, and the later you do it, the less time you will have" and after that argument, I actually started work, and finished it. Wasn't as hard as I expected it to be. Kudos brain...Kudos

Holidays

Been procrastinating way too long here =/ suppose to start on my dissertation but one day leads to another and nothing was done...

Just finished watching Iris, darn good korean drama man. One episode that keeps you hooked to the next. Once you start, it's the end for you, 20 episodes of action packed drama. The story is about the unification of South Korea and North Korea and Iris is a secret organization trying to prevent the unification because they reap profits out of war..nasty. However somehow watching the show, it made me had this thinking that we as civilians are like chess pieces and our government, the players. The ones who would be sacrificed are the people - just like chess pieces on the chess board; and the player, no matter what wrong move they make stays alive. When the PM of S. Korea was asked(in the show of course!): "why is the unification of the North and South so important that so many lives has to be sacrificed, we were living nicely and peacefully previously". The PM just replied " If a little sacrifice is not made, then greater plans cannot take place". Which is true, but yea just made me thought of us as a mere chess piece to the government....choose your government wisely! But spoiler here, the PM wasn't part of Iris, he just really really want to unite the 2 nations.

This one week was not productive at all -.- one of the reason was well the drama mentioned above. 1 hour per episode weih T.T and then they kept the bait at the end so you would watch the next episode straight away....and there goes time. Just like that...

Malaysia boleh!

Malaysia has the potential of becoming like the movies I watch on TV. Ok fine, not has the potential, it is exactly like the movies already. I find it terrifying yet somewhat amaze that all these do exist. 14 cases of shooting has already been reported in the last 3 months, and these shootings took place in broad daylight, well one of them was at night with high speed chasing. 2 very bizarre case which caught my attention was the shooting of AmBank founder Najadi and chief of MyWatch R. Sri Sanjeevan. What I find really fascinating was the fact that the underworld does exist here in Malaysia where police would arrange for spies to spy on the baddies. Apparently Mr. Sanjeevan knows some secrets of the underworld thats why he was to be assassinated but he managed to drive his car and sped away before going to the hospital to receive treatment. It was also reported that he was actually tipped off earlier by his spies that people were after him......and I thought all these only happens in movies, specifically speaking TVB and Hong Kong movies where ppl shoot and gangs gather in broad daylight; and all these are happening not only in the same country where I am but in the state that I'm living in too...It's not safe anymore. The other one is Najadi, it was reported that he got assassinated because of a business deal that went sour. That is also another scenario which i thought only happens in movies, but there you go again, broad daylight, with many ppl around and BAM just like that....DEAD, right in Cheras man...no joke weih; and the killers are roaming free, macam James Bond weih, paid to kill....what is becoming of this society? All for the sake of money.....I think that's why the Bible says that "the love of money is the root of all kinds of evil" If only people would share their wealth, help the poor, perhaps this society would not be so bad, I read a piece of news today, this van driver was also shot dead by someone, and when the police checked his identity, he was apparently responsible for 5 robberies in the past, but his family described him as a loving brother and son who cared for the family. Perhaps if these people got help, they wouldn't end up to what they are today. Perhaps he stole and rob for the sake of the survival of their families, though I do not approve of his way of stealing or robbing and his actions were wrong, but his intentions were good, and I just thought that if only maybe someone would have approach him, or at least give him a chance, he wouldn't end up as what he is today. haih...