Living in another world

Don't you think it's nice to be an actress/ actor? You get to try out different professions, you don't have to stick to it, and the best part is, you don't have to study for it! You can be a doctor, you can be a lawyer; just slowly trying out occupations without actually going through the real stress, and even if there is an obstacle in "life", you will know at the end of the day, everything is going to be alright. You get to live a life that people all want to have, the perfect boyfriend, the perfect father figure, everything is perfect. You get to kiss cute guys too! *sigh* It's nice living in a movie :) it's a fairytale everybody wants to live in.

BUT...

It gives you false hope, creates high expectation (especially for the guys)and it has somehow made it's way into our society, transforming people making people believe that "yes, this is the way people should behave, dress up or look" the power of the media.... So magnificently great...

I'm getting baptized !

I'll be getting water baptized tomorrow after 19 years of being a christian. And the funny thing is, I didn't get water baptized earlier was because I was afraid of sharing a testimony and also at that time, I didn't really had much of a testimony to share.

Well, it was like this, even though i was born into a christian family, but i have always taken God for granted, going to church was a ritual/routine/an obligation, and back then i was "blind" all that God has blessed me with was taken for granted. It was until i was in form 5 that i started to experience His presence in my life. I suppose it was thanks to Marcus for inspiring me to fast for a week when prayer emphasis week came about. Though we were suppose to fast for a month, but we choose to fast for a week. I fasted lunch heh heh ( lost 2KG in a week man dun play play) it was after that, that made me "see" alot of things.

I remember applying/writing in to Taylor's for a partial scholarship, and then i prayed that i would get that scholarship, however the Lord saw greater things for me and granted me full scholarship after registering in Taylor's. He helped me with my interview, gave me confidence, sometimes when i think back, i would wonder, why did Taylor's choose me? there were so many potential applicants, why me? for me the interview was like trying my luck, even if i dun get it, i would at least gain some experience that kind of thing. (but i still prayed hard for it though)But then surprisingly i got it, so i really thank God for it =) The angels must have brain washed the judges, whispering in their ears all the time hahaha coz one of the judges was my lecturer, and i was bared from entering his class coz i was late >.< how could he still have a good impression on me? anyways, i still have alot of testimonies to testify but i think i will bore you. However i'm sure of one thing, the starting point was the fasting, and then i started to join heart shapers, in which i though i would be going to shape the kids hearts to be little warriors for the Lord, but instead of me shaping their hearts, they have in turn shaped my heart. I've realised that my faith in him has grown, and I see Him working in my life more often. And now, i'm taking this step to follow Jesus in his footsteps and to be a real christian. Though i won't be the BEST christian, as i still don't do alot of religious stuff normal christians do, but i know that changes are going to occur after this first step, and i'm gonna be ready to embrace it =) Amen!!

bling bling

I've learnt something very valuable just by making a decision of eating out with a bunch of new found friends. I've realized that it is good to step out of your comfort zone, to try new things and to reach new horizons. My mum told me once " wah you ar always mixing with the wrong group, either you are always eating out with the aunties ( not really aunties la, just that they are a few 10 years more senior than me thats all) or you are mixing around with the kids (referring to the church kids which i'm volunteering to keep an eye on), why aren't you mixing around with people with your own age? why not you change ministry and join the choir or something so you can meet people your age?" So yesterday, i finally went out with "people my age" to eat lunch. Doesn't sound like a feat? it is to me, coz i don't know many people in my church apart from my batch of CW friends whom i lost touch with since i always sit with my mom during sermons and probably just a few aunties who would accommodate in the children's ministry. So yea, when my friend asked me out, i was a tad skeptical about going, but then i decided it is time i get out of my comfort zone. And i was glad i did. We chatted over lunch and i learnt something from this guy, he definitely has live his daily life to the fullest. He didn't let money get into his way when it comes to experiencing new things, in his case its sports, and its extreme sports type. Sometimes i wonder, what is pulling me back? you only live life once, but then again, i'm not living in a world that revolves around me, there are people's feelings that i need to consider, easier said than done *sigh* but then he said something which i thought was true, he said " opportunities are out there, it is whether you want to grab them or not, if you search for it, you will surly find it" FULAMAK! so true man, ever since then, i start to look at things differently. Everything becomes an opportunity and not an obstacle, and i realized i was more willing to go head on with things instead of thinking of all the negative things it would bring before even trying, and sometimes these negative thoughts of mine would lead me to not go at all and missing out on great events. Overall through that lunch, i've met 2 more new friends, i suppose it was me all along not wanting to open up to people, they were actually quite friendly hahaha new stepping stone!

And yes, the heads on decision was actually about today's audition introduced by Jian Yong. And i'm glad i made that decision, i met a few more new people today =))) who knows what more new horizons are awaiting me? Oh, and yes, in every group, there's bound to be a glue that bonds other friends together. In high school it was Houyi, in college it was Wenyi and in church it is Joshua =) and he will NEVER see this lol but i'm really grateful to these "glues", they are the reason i got closer to friends and get to know more friends =) so THANK YOU!