Are you lonesome tonight?

I used to remember a time when I was still studying, I would imagine the future, when I have moved out of my parents house and being financially independent, imagine coming home to a quiet house, eating meals alone, watching TV alone; and that thought scared me. That need to be socially connected was so strong back then that I hated to dine alone in campus; that I would prefer to eat with somebody and not talk than to eat alone.

Today, I no longer have that fear. In fact, I love being alone and having some "me" time. To shut myself in my room, lay in bed all day, do the things I want to do, whenever I want to and go where ever I want to. I even started to catch movies in cinemas on my own too! That thought used to scare me too, but I enjoy watching a movie whenever I feel like it without having to consider other people's schedule. It comes with a perk too, I get to watch the movie with cheaper rates too since my schedule allows it. (Wednesday ftw!)  Weird thing about watching movies on weekday afternoon? The hall is almost empty. I think it's a little unusual here for people to go cinemas alone, coz the only other people who were in the hall with me were 2 other couples. Thank goodness for them or else it would have been awkward if I was the only one there, or maybe not...I could have put my legs on the seat in front..........just kidding. The Intern was a good movie. I like how humble the intern was even though he was a high and mighty VP during his glory days. Imagine being an intern doing all the mundane task like getting coffee, clearing desk etc. Not so sure someone with an impressive past would have brought himself down to the level to do that sort of thing. It taught me a lot about attitude and how you can be a blessing where ever you are. About simple random act of kindness can melt the coldest of hearts and just going the extra mile. I suppose hospitality teaches you all these things as well, but it has to come with passion.

So much has changed within the past year. I no longer join events only when other people joins them, but I join them because I want to and I'll go regardless if I go with a partner or not. If there is a partner then it's a bonus, but if not, I'm fine =) and I kinda like it that way.